Striving for that ever elusive state of zen

Ever since being born
Tuesday January thirteenth
nineteen hundred and fifty nine,
yours truly on a lifetime quest
to establish a body, mind
and spiritual and eternal state of zen
unfortunately mine infantile babbling assertion
misinterpreted as simon-pure poppycock,
thus denying who else but yours truly
despite favorably succeeding
the grueling impossible mission search process,
and after Senior monks
previous long in the tooth lamas,
(who maintained a pristine set of teeth)
observed countless omens,
especially momma Llamas behavior,
consulted oracles, and looked for signs
to find a young child who displayed
a connection to the previous leader reincarnation:
Tibetan Buddhists believe
the Dalai Lama consciously chooses
the body into which he reincarnates yen

though Godless and a skeptic,
who tried to boot strap himself
from grinding poverty
where late mother of mine when
the she experienced during labor,
contractions frequency
increased by magnitudes of ten
and intervals shortened
as the cervix dilated
verus In early labor, contractions
occur every 10 to 20 minutes
and last 30 to 45 seconds
while in active labor,
they occur every 3 to 5 minutes,
(or every 2 to 3 minutes as labor advances)
invariably ofttimes triggering complications
and last 45 to 60+ seconds
and actually died in childbirth,
which found this newborn
with papa a widower with a brood of kids,
(who as an aside fought
in the American Civil War)
and interestingly enough
met his demise from severe labor pains,

arose necessitating administration of phen fen

Fen refers to fenfluramine
(or its related sister drug,
dexfenfluramine/Redux),
an appetite suppressant
that increases serotonin
signaling in the brain
to create a feeling of fullness
(to ease pressure
on the lower back and Phen
refers to phentermie,
a mild stimulant
that blunts appetite
by affecting the central nervous system
whereat he underwent spinal tap
courtesy Doctor Ken Ken
from Kenya (believe that)
plus the use of a catheter
and external bag used
to collect bowel movements
generally called an ostomy bag,
or more specifically
an ostomy pouch, colostomy bag,
or ileostomy bag,
depending on the part of the intestine involved
to ease relief of urine and human waste
pressing down on the damaged sacral lumbar
among numerous other linkedin fractured Spondyles
(medical/anatomical term for individual vertebrae)

with the remainng human vertebral column,
which consists of 33 individual bones
(vertebrae) in youth that typically fuse
into 26 distinct bones in adulthood:
Over time they subsequently
got divided into five distinct regions
thanks be to dating back to
ancient Greek and Roman medicine,
notably through the work
of Hippocrates and, Galen
in the 2nd century After Daddy
of religion devastatingly died.:
Cervical (7 neck bones,
including C1 Atlas and C2 Axis),
Thoracic (12 chest bones),
Lumbar (5 lower back bones),
Sacrum (5 fused bones),
and Coccyx (4 fused tailbone bones),
which conveniently brings me

to the end of this poem

and no, I did not snort nor smoke kimiki glen.