change myself

I want to change

I want to change to a person where my family don't hate me

I want to change where people will cry saying she did it 

I want to change because they will think I'm a better person

I want to change because I don't want to get hated from the outsiders of my family 

I want to change and not get yelled at

I want to change because I want love

I want to change that. because loving is all I ever wanted

and the love I needed is from my parents

but the change in me will never be the same of how it was 8 years

just that girl that want love from a whole different being from someone who can take care of me 

when I grow and I will take care of him and so will he

but that change will never happen cause they want me to fall and I instantly fall

they say love is if you really love someone you drop everything for yourself and pay attention to them instead of yourself that what love is

but the love I always needed is my mom and dad 

but I cant go back because I was never wanted so I will be that daughter that will become abandon for the years I walked in their world 

I want to change so I will...