Black Hole

I can’t quiet my head, aim or get my priorities straight

And I see the shadows that I cast, they make failure feel like fate

I go to bed on time, but my thoughts burn holes in my eyes, I’m still up late

Everything’s woven together, I focus on nothing and everything, I can’t separate

Two steps forward, I’m wrestling against the step back

But every ache in my chest makes me paranoid of another heart attack

It’s gray, it’s really gray, why does it look black?

I shatter in my mind, will and heart at the slightest crack

Please don’t let me fall anymore

I already overcame this, I could’ve swore

But I feel the tension rising, don’t send me back to war

I’ve come too far, it’s been too long, my peace, I just want to restore

Please just help me see through my own lie

It hasn’t rained in years, fix my head on the blue sky

I knew I could yesterday, remind me now that I can fly

Hell is the lost story of someone else who wore my skin, I don’t need to die

But I hear whispers from the past spoken by someone who was insane

And I’m terrified by the sight of his self indulgence in his own pain

And I don’t understand, because I thought this monster had been slain

But he’s making me afraid that my discovery of greener pastures was in vain

Hit the brakes, breathe the cool, crisp air, feel the sun, go on a stroll

Somehow, somewhere, I’ll find something else to calm the waves in my soul

Nothing then ever did, it’s God here and now made me whole

I escaped and I’m never going back to that black hole