A Girl Like Me

                      A Girl like Me
I thought…I thought you liked me for me…
For my outgoing personality…but I was wrong I was deceived…
Naive so foolish of me to think you and I could ever have a chance to be…
To be the girl to change you for the better but that was never my place you see…
I overstepped my boundaries thinking you and me could become we…
But in the back of your mind you knew you didn’t want me…
Cliché…the typical fraud ass nigga I didn’t need you to be…
But I let my bad ass judgement get the best of me…
How stupid of me…
You see I wanted you to be different so in my mind you were nothing like them to me…
And I fell for your schemes what I shame I got down on my knees…
Begging and pleading because I never wanted you to leave…
Did some things I won’t proud of and now down till this very moment I’m about to conceive…
Eight months pregnant on my own…but you promised to never leave…
Keep it 100…we always said we’ll be chill…
Now I call your cell phone and I don’t even get an answer, what’s the deal…
Mama always told me don’t let anyone get the best of me…
But you got the best of me you got my everything only in return just for you to play me…
Is stupid written across my head because that’s what you seem to think of me…
Played me like a fool but you get a pass cause I gotta turn the other cheek…
Be the bigger person they say and let karma have its way…
Truth be told I wanna run over you with a car slash your tires and bust the windows out your car…
I look in the mirror and don’t even recognize myself…
I let you degrade me and hurt me now I’m crying out for help…
Should’ve listened to my conscious but my body had me longing…
For your hands you was so charming can’t believe you got me started…
Gotta pull myself together can’t look back I gotta be clever…
But know when you miss me that you’re the reason for me leaving…
I never wanted us to end…
But in your mind we never even started…
So now I gotta sit here and pretend like you never existed…
But how can I do that with the memory of you that lies within my presence…
Everything happens for a reason I see and I got a blessing out of a heartbreak but I wish it could be different…
I wanna say I hate you and wish nothing but bad upon you…
But now I wanna say thank you…because the fraud ass nigga I fell for gave me something special…
But I thought…I thought you liked me for me…
For my inspirational tongue and loving-kindness…
But I guess every nigga can’t like or love a woman like me.