This feeling inside

This feeling inside
it's just so unfamiliar
it's sadness
but it seems there's a twist.

I portray happiness,
giddiness,
I may even be optimistic.
My face reads:
happy girl, with no problems.
which is true.

But this girl...
She has a feeling inside
it's sadness.
So unfamiliar
because she spreads happiness
never sadness.
She laughs with you
Consoles you
tells you everything will be alright.
But honestly, she is crying inside.
Oh, this feeling inside.

This feeling inside
takes over at night
with tear stained pillows
that will dry in due time.
Never letting you know
the feeling she feels inside.

No one knows, and no one will know
what it is she feels inside.
Only one who'll know
are the walls and her pillows
only because they see her cry.
Her wishes are only wishes
wishes that can't be granted
wishes for someone
anyone
who will hear her cry.

But she knows
none will come.
so she wallows in her feelings
until they are gone.