Forever changed

~Forever changed~

Those thoughts that captivate my mind
The same ones that suddenly make me feel so blind
To each and every sign.

Those are the thoughts that keep me up all night
I lay there wondering how I always seem to loose sight
Of every important thing.. Until I reach that moment of realization and force myself to stand up and fight

I begin to tell myself it is not wrong
To stand tall, and stand strong
And take myself out of any situation in which I do not belong

There is no reason to sit an dwell
On something I know will never be well
So I let the frustration and rage set sail

As I take each deep breathe
My frustration level begins to dwindle to less and less
Until that moment I choose to let go of all my life's stress

I refuse to let anyone push me around
I will march to the beat of my own sound
Most of all I will continue to make myself proud

No one will tell me who I am or who I must be
That is one hundred percent solely up to me
I will never stop becoming the person that I truly desire to be

I will no longer let myself doubt
What it is that I want my life to represent and be about

This is not my end.. Surely it is just the beginning
Of my life and it's new found meaning

No more pain..
No more shame..
Only the strength I will continue to gain