Just live

With time comes wisdom.

With wisdom comes better understanding what life truly is.

When I was younger.

I was reckless and ambitious.

Anxious to prove that I was different.

My vision was flawed.

Instead of standing out.

I fell in line with the other men.

Hot temper.

Itchy finger.

Try to touch my pride.

You will get disfigured.

Not a pretty  picture and I had to change.

Being angry all the time is not very beneficial.

You just waste your energy.

Growing I had a lot enemies.

Always a victim of their verbal abuse.

I make excuses in my head that it is ok

When  I felt like I'm better of dead.

I felt like dragging a razor across my wrist to see how much I bled.

But instead I tough it out.

Cause deep inside I wanted to know what life was truly about.

Psychological issues.

Suicidal and very violent.

Deep bouts of depression.

Keeping you up during the night.

You couldn't go to sleep cause you were crying all through the night.

You wished you had knife.

To end this sometime during tonight.

Never thought I be in this kind of fight.

I am scarred.

Scarred from my experience.

I am mad that I was bullied.

Sad cause I had depression.

Lonely cause I had nobody.

Disappoint that I never fell in love.

What does life truly mean?

I don't know.

I never got answer.

I just knew I wanted to life and that was the answer.

We are here to live.

Its not complex answer.

Your deepest pain.

Always try to overcome it.

So you can help someone else overcome theirs.

We are here to live.

Get hurt.

Cry.

Fall in love and do it twice over.

Hidden in my deepest scar is knowledge I never knew about myself.

I am strong and I can overcome anything in life.

Experiences make you stronger.

So if it is your time to go.

You can say I am not afraid if I die tonight.