Love's Facade

The love I'd given you was thick, though wearing thin
Thin enough to dispense from the pockets of my eyes
Yet too damn thick, my heart suffered harrowing cries
and not a word I said pierced your scaly dragon skin

In that very moment, you filed your nails like a violin
Your emery board scuffs the fatal tune as if to reprise
Gesturing your facial ways, reveling your pathetic lies
Refusing to mend errors and never to have loved within

No matter how much I tried to love every inch of you,
Your heart impulsively recoiled like a measuring tape
thoughtlessly saying, "It is not enough you big fat ape"
Never measuring up to your standards, only for a screw

Through that cold blood, something would always brew
Slowly would I notice that everything was a great debate
Lover's diversion failed to realize that, on our first date
Causing a contradiction from what I've known and knew
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I had figured that there was only one thing you wanted
I gave you that and everything else without hesitation
After your needs were fulfilled, I became a manifestation
Days were empty like my mind and my heart well unwanted

There was nothing I could do and she knew it as well
As faithful as I was and as damaged I slowly became
Insane was the name of her malignant confidence game
Weakening, dispelling my soul with her whispers of hell

I loved once again, and yet I failed with the wrong person
I could not experience what I wanted so I decided to eject
I ran as fast as I could but my exit faded with every step
I felt a spell since my heart had visualized another version

I was trapped and I could no longer speak or scream pain
Imaginative and creative I was, I could not think of felicity
Her voice, for some reason, licked and lured me into toxicity
Drained I was, I searched for ways to avoid her complain

I was done pursuing what does not want me or to be nourished
"Now take your perfume from here and please, leave me alone!"
Unworthy, I splashed myself with her flammable gift cologne
Relieving affliction, lit up with a Warmth I've always cherished

©David Joel Rodriguez