Numb

I've forgotten what it's like to feel
to care
to love

I've forgotten what's it's like to be happy
to find enjoyment in things that used to excite me

I've forgotten what it's felt like to be so deep in a conversation I can't even remember how or where it started

I've forgotten what being wanted feels like
what it feels like to have somebody to lean on

I've become accustomed to feeling numb and now that's all I feel anymore

I've become accustomed to the agonizing feeling of loneliness and heaviness of my heart

I've become accustomed to sleeping all day to escape the thundercloud of depression that never leaves from hovering over my head, with constant showers of sadness

I've forgotten what it's like to not feel so fucking empty

I've become accustomed to frequent panic attacks and being perceived as being crazy

I've forgotten what it's like to feel human