I Am

I can't do it, I'm hopeless

I want to find my happiness

I don't feel at home, I'm homeless

I'm tired of being me, I'm so tired

I can't seem to escape this loneliness

If I dream of it can I really be happy

 Can I really imagine that, being happy?

 I can't do anything, that's what they all said, I'm hopeless

 I need someone to take this feeling away, this feeling of loneliness

 Where ever it is I will find it, I know it's out there, my happiness

 Could I paint a new me, if I did could I not be so tired

 This can't be what I call home, I won't, I'm just homeless

A home has a family, I have no family, I am homeless

What is happiness? Does it take more than one to be happy?

I'm tired of this life, this feeling, can I stop being so tired?

I hope I can do something worth while, can I? or am I really hopeless

Am I getting married, a new car, money, is that my happiness?

I'm stuck in the darkness all by myself. I'm all alone, is this loneliness?

  If the sun could shine threw the window and shed some light into this darkness, someone can see me and take away this loneliness

  Everyone has somewhere they are needed. For me, will be a home, I will no longer be homeless

  What is it to be happy? what I'd give to have real happiness

  If so, should I have friends or get married to the person I truly love, will they make me so happy?

  If what they say is true, that I am hopeless, then I will show them what I can do, I will show them how it is to be hopeless

  Am I tired because I am unhappy or am I lazy. I yawn at my every thought and it makes me more tired.

So tired

I'm alive and a good person, so why do I have to be so lonely, is there anything I can do to take away this loneliness.

To be bad is everything, everything in your life has gone wrong and you can't seem to fix it, to not accept anything you have done, that's hopeless

Could not even a single shelter take me in or an orphanage for my homeless self, I can wonder the streets my whole life and still be homeless.

I am happy. Nothing could ruin it, if the world came crashing down on me, or if the sky started falling I would just smile as bright as the sun and show the world that I am truly happy.

I would give up this life that is no different for a little happiness; I would take away what makes me happy for a better happiness.

 Is the sky falling down on me? the clouds are casting a big shadow on me taking away my bright sun, my happiness.

 If this life is making me so tired maybe there is a better life for me somewhere else, somewhere that won't make me so tired.

 I look at my love for the last time as a thunder bolt comes crashing down from the bright blue sky, rain poor from my eyes as I become unhappy.

 

There is one thing that can take me from this feeling of being lonely, I put a blade to my golden brown skin and close my eyes smiling, now to escape this loneliness.

An angel descends from the sky and holds her hand out to me, she welcomes me home and a warm feeling starts to bubble up inside of me, I grab onto her and she takes me away and no longer am I homeless.

Everything about me is hopeless, Everything I do is hopeless, I am hopeless

 

It's gone my happiness and now I suffer with this loneliness.

I am so very tired, but at least I have my angel and am no longer tired

I am forever hopeless so I will end me and in another world I will be happy.