Dear community

bleeding diamonds

Dear community.

Dear community, I have lied to you.

I lie to you when I tell you that I’m okay.

I lie to you when I tell you that I’ve had a good weekend.

Dear community.

Maybe I felt that I owed you a happy face.

Or maybe I thought I owed you a simple laugh.

Maybe I wanted to be like everyone else and fit in like the last piece of a puzzle

Maybe I wanted to blend in, so I kept my true thoughts under a muzzle.

Dear community.

I wish I could tell you why.

But the truth is, I’m an average guy.

Maybe that’s not what you see.

Maybe it is.

But with every word I speak, I die.

The worst thing…the worst part of it all is hearing the voices.

They talk with a quiver, shouting at me.

They yell: Insults and lies as they dish out torture.

I wish I could tell you that the house I live in is not my home,

But I’ve grown to welcome the pain for it suits me well.

With every fist, every tear, comes a new revolution

Spurring up like a fairy tale

With no happy ending.

the sheath of fate.

The sword of pain

They hurt me like a gun shot wound to the chest.

Well my dear community, I wish you the best.

But as we all know, suicide is not the answer.

See, I’ve been inside a dark place for many years.

I know what its like to be truly afraid.

I know what its like

To be in a place that feels so ugly, so shifted.

I know what it feels like to say, “wanna see a magic trick? Watch me disappear!”

But I cant. And the reason is her.

She keeps me safe.

Her love provides a boat when I’m drowning.

She makes the light when I’m in the dark.

I love her MORE than life itself.

She keeps me alive.

But the other reason is my future.

I don’t wanna think about the things I might never see.

But once the fog clears I see the reasons to live.

Life is a powerful word.

It brings so much.

And if you’re anything like me,

You can’t stop crying.

But, child, pick up your face.

Bring yourself to feel again.

There is a light.

I promise.

I found that light.

Now all I have to do is reach it.

I will grasp it with all my heart.

With all of my soul!

I promise things get better.

So dear community.

I really should be thanking you.

Each and every one of you.

 I want you to know how you saved me.

I want you to know how every smile I’ve seen here gave me hope.

What I am really trying to say is,

Dear community, thank you.

 

 

  • Author: bleeding diamonds (Offline Offline)
  • Published: March 22nd, 2016 14:19
  • Comment from author about the poem: I wrote this poem because i have been abused, and i wanted to let my emotions run free
  • Category: Sociopolitical
  • Views: 69
  • Users favorite of this poem: Despina Nicole Cambosos
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  • Siera_Golden

    That's really good and creative

    • bleeding diamonds

      thank you =) loved your poem

      • Siera_Golden

        Your welcome and Thankyou in kinda new to this haha

      • Despina Nicole Cambosos

        Great poem-it captures the power we have given to the media platforms.

      • MsMermaid

        Wow. I'm comforted to know that in the midst of all your unbearable pain you realize you're not alone. Our creativity... YOUR creativity saves you to come back here another day... Best therapy in the world.



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