I can't sleep
I'm so tired, panic attacks make me tired
But blissful sleep is elusive
My eyes feel heavy
Yet when they close sleep does not welcome me
On nights when sadness meets me
I stay up worried, crying
Full of anxiety
I start to see dancing shadows
Just my mind playing tricks
This is when I think about dying
I want to sleep, but I stay awake
At those times I want sleep almost as badly
As I want to stay awake on my depressed days
I sleep, always so tired
But I cannot convince my body to wake up
I'm so sad, I drag
I could sleep forever
I don't dream
Except for the nightmares
Oh god the nightmares
My subconscious is just doing it's job
It's what my brain is made of
When I can't sleep I want to
When I can, I don't
There are times when I sleep 8 hours
I wake up and I can get dressed
I can go to school
I can be normal
I wish every day was a good day
People take sleep for granted
I'm either sleep deprived
Or I sleep just to stay alive
Because maybe if I was awake
I'd commit suicide
I just want to be happy,normal, and free
Free from my mind
Free from my body
Free from me
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- Comment from author about the poem: It's a constant battle man.
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Comments2
Touching!
Freedom has its perks, but it also carries a great deal of responsibility...
But, you know, its freedom, and that goes a long way. : )
I love this poem so much!
How are you describing the way I've been feeling..
Both literally and metaphorically I resonate with this..
Thank you so much..
Really emotional right now..
I apologize for not replying earlier but thank you so much.
Always welcome 🌹
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