THE SOUNDS OF MY EMOTIONS IN THE LIGHT

One evening,
soon after getting home,
I threw off my red jacket
onto the disordered bed.

 

Then I turned on the television,
and what's more,
turned on the switch of the CD player,
but I did not turn on the main light of the room.

 

I started to listen to the organ music with headphones.
This music had been composed
in 17th and 18th centuries’
France and Southern Netherlands.

 

Not long afterward,
I took off the headphones
and threw it onto the red jacket
and then looked at the TV screen.
It was gleaming. The TV's sound was small.
And that headphones were yet sending out the small sound of the organ music.

 

In the light that TV screen sent out,
I took a Japanese dictionary
and began to look up new words in it.
Because this evening
I had found curious words in the outer world.

 

On every page of the dictionary
there were a few words
marked with highlighters of various colors.
But these words didn't stand out.

 

As I tried to find the new curious words,
I was hearing the different sounds,
that is to say
the TV's small sound, the small sound of the organ music,
and the sound of my voice
in which I spoke the new curious words inside my heart.

 

It was proper that these new curious words had their own meanings.
But mysteriously,
these words gave birth to the sounds of my various emotions.
Their meanings sounded my various emotions.
The dictionary seemed to be beginning to change to the aggregate
of my various emotions.

 

In this evening,
the outer world had brought me the new curious words.
These new curious words brought me the various emotions.
And the sounds of all the emotions were given by the small dictionary.
This dictionary was illuminated by the gleaming light
of the TV screen, and I heard the small sound
of the organ music that the black headphones sent out.