build up

Build up

I look up in the sky as the tears i cry mix wit rain tht drips on my face deep inside i feel an empty space a void a place were i can store my deepest darkest emotions tht mke my brain spin an my soul looks out the windows tht shows the world an i sit an wait for my break thru at a stand still the world moves around me i think How cud he do this to me hate me beat me atempt to break me i feel it well up on me my arms my neck im angery it builds i become invincible my mind races so many thoughts at one time things i want to say an do ways i can mke him pay for my heart ach love an hat all at the same time the desire to fix it helplessness cus i cant mke something i didnt do right i want him to love me but no hate is all he has for me an i am at a place of disgrace abandon an thrown away held to no real value by him