Blood Sweat and Tears

I can't sleep, I can't stand to be awake.. my life it's weak, it can't be mine it all seem fake..
My heart, it bleeds, it weeps, with every tear that falls the love it leaks..
It's lost, without a trace..
finding love in this life seem to be an endless chase..
The Christ is calling, i can hear Him..
He's close, i know, i can feel Him..
Sometimes I just hang my head and cry..
Thinking in order for me to live an innocent man had to die..
Not just a man, but the son of the most high!.
Dying for a world that will just pass Him by..
He's the one that will show me the way I know He can..
If only I can find Him maybe then I can stand..
Standing firm, not fearing the day of judgement..
Standing against a loveless world, unable to budge me..
Until then I'll remain broken..
With a rift within me, darkness so thick it feels like I'm choking..

Just standing here in this rain..
as it washes away the tears from my pain..
Looking towards heaven without a word alone..
Just wondering if this world isn't my home then where is it I belong..
I know I'll find that place I'm searching for someday..
Until then it's blood sweat and tears I'll have to pay.