How Could No One See? Poem, by celestialhippie, at My poetic side

I wanted to die

I don’t know how it went unnoticed

The bags under my eyes, black and blue

I barely slept and looked so weak

Hiding myself behind leggings and baggy sweaters

Behind foundation and eyeliner

Behind a fake smile and loving nature

I was a shadow of who I was

There was nothing I could want more

Than to take the gun to my head

Or to tie a noose around my neck

Or to let pills and alcohol poison me

Or to just bleed out on the bedroom floor

The only thing holding me back was the fear of oblivion

What would happen to my soul when I passed?

How would it affect the person that walked in on me?

Will all of my friends blame themselves?

Is anyone going to care that I’m dead?

I wanted to be a skeleton

With thighs that would barely let me stand up

And arms that couldn’t carry a backpack

A body that wouldn’t be able to stand

I wanted to ruin my body,

My soul

And every ounce of myself

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