Things that I will never say

G-Kaphen

And in our silences, I hear myself break.
I feel myself loosen as I try to pull my seams shut.
It's so quiet here between us, even though I hear your voice,
And even if I had a choice I would never let myself speak.

In our gentle, little glances I try to tell you the truth.
But it never seems to come across clear enough.
My Morse code blinking never seems to do the job...
But I think that's mainly my fault.

See, when you grow up like I did
You're taught to never let yourself become vulnerable.
So I hide my insecurities in my goodbyes,
And I hide my fears in my I love you's 

And I'm so scared of coming across as vulnerable
That I do not tell you I want to die.
I do not tell you that I heave dreamt every angle of my death
Or about the things that I keep hidden
I just keep regurgitating that I'm...Good today...
I'm as good as I never have been.

  • Author: G-Kaphen (Offline Offline)
  • Published: July 26th, 2016 22:53
  • Comment from author about the poem: Hi I took a break from writing poetry for a while and I literally only just finished writing this 10 minutes ago so if it's shit I'm sorry, kind of your own fault for reading it tho. I kid, I kid
  • Category: Sad
  • Views: 30
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