God hates me

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My name is Epa.

I am nine years old.

I am from kosovo.

I'm a refugee. 

One more thing you should know about me. 

God hates me.

God turned away from me.

He took my sister ,my parents and everything

I saw my parents getting shot.

I am Epa and god hates me.

I am nine years old and i just saw my sister die with my own eyes.

I promised myself I will never pray or go to church.

She had a rare virus.

Hemophilia

She was sick for two years

i couldn't help her and then she died.

I just wanted to scream and run 

jump up and tear god down from heaven

and ask him why he hates me.

                                                                            After 2 months 

Since my sister's death 

i was taken to the u.s. 

it has been two months and three days

i remember when i promised my sister that i will be happy 

and find a new family. 

Now i am in foster care facing the door of hell.

waiting for a nice couples to pick me up. 

The other children around me are pushing me 

aside crawling like ants their eyes filled with 

hope.

I feel bad for them.  

The front door opens and the couples come in. 

one couple looked at me 

just when i lost all hope. 

The couple was holding each other tight and 

they were smiling and looking at me

this was the best feeling I had in a long time.