Your Name...

There is a lot of pain inside my chest part,
It seems most is coming from my heart
Everyday starts and ends the same
Realizing that's when I get the worst pain
Remembering again there will never be an us
A thought that causes many tears to flush

Just a couple things may cause a smile ,
Only about one or two every while
Since living without you I have to learn,
How to do it, with the pain, its like a burn
Love is now a fear of mine, and a regret
Your love I thought I would keep and yet
Now i look and see just your name is left
 
Maybe one day it'll end with a J
One thought of mine I try to say
Only J is mine and I can't just give it away
Do you remember how you wanted it too
You may not, but every single day I do.

-Akil J.