different

loyal to a fucking fault, not mad at any soul but my own.
just another fucking idiot with another beating heart.
you hurt me only because i let you close enough to do it, because i couldn't be alone - 
why do i expect different results from events with the same starts?
The Story is so old, there's nothing to spoil
at least i can say that i'm 'so fucking loyal'-
so loyal, in fact, that i'll hang on even as we part,
just so fucking loyal, that i'll take this shit to the soil,
until cell by cell my body falls apart.
i've heard the line "i'm different" used so many times, it's a cliche.
so why have i still not learned my lesson?
they know what i've been through, they still make that claim.
so if i recognize the signs, then i'm the only one to blame 
for falling again, for that false sympathy that sets off their transgression. 
and i don't consider if they all say they're different, are they all not the same?
maybe different is the very quality i'm trying to avoid, because now when I hear it I get paranoid. So let's hold the fuck up, and let's take a step back. are you the different that sets you apart or the different that bows out once you've had an impact? because i'd rather end this with my heart still intact. do you really love me did you mean that you care? because sometimes that's a lie and i'm already scared. i'm a sensitive guy and my trust is impaired, because i keep on giving it to the wrong kind of different. it starts with me hopeful and ends with me sad.
i'm down on my luck and i just got fucked up pretty bad - 
by someone who told me they were different, so yeah, 
i'm starting to think different is code for a front.
so let's stop this right here before you do the same 
because if you're that kind of different, then spare me your name.