Clean Slate

He is leaving again for that snow drifted city of snobbery to the North

I am wondering if the main reason is because I have done absolutely nothing in an attempt to keep him under my wings

Having him here nearby has given me a sense of security

But I know that Colorado brings him a better world and a bigger smile

Perhaps, when he moves, it will open up a new door into my heart

A clean slate

A place for a new relationship with a decent man

I cannot stand being a nun anymore

I wish that my morale was not such a rigid, sexless whore

I have somehow forgotten how to embrace the nymphomaniac in me

It's an entire chapter that I know must become an excerpt in my new book of life that I already have up on a shelf ready to open up and read

Technically, I really don't need anything that I don't already have

But, that is no reason to ignore my plethora of hidden wishes and desires

All it does is make them all nag at me from the deepest recesses of my mind

I don't want to leave any opportunity for anything at all behind me now

I am at a pinnacle in the middle of my life

It is all downhill from here

There are beautiful boys everywhere, salivating at the sight of me

Nothing to fear but falling for their machismo-ridden wishes, which is nothing to fear at all

I am excited to see who will catch me, because I know that I am about to fall harder than I ever have

I need to put my guard to rest

I must ace every test that comes my way

I need to spread my wings and soar before my beauty fades and my hair all falls out or turns grey

I honestly do not have the slightest clue what the Hell I have been waiting for

I don't see how it could be out of my own will

Those moronic practitioners of the dark arts are, without a doubt, casting out their nonsense upon my livelihood still

They aren't any good at the shit that they do

I am a brand new bitch for them to hate now

They need to back their shit up to the jump and start again

They can't take my money, my luck, my health, or my man

So, can anyone tell me what it is that they expect to achieve?

Every single time Reyes and I reach a point like this, they needle him until he feels like he has no other choice but to leave

So okay, I just got the news, he is going away..

That's all those bitches get!

I quit!

The end..

Send your darkened prayers some other way

You are no longer part of any day

any week

any hour

Now, bon apetit , my will is to make you devour yourselves

I am not a witch

I have resigned

I only do healing work for clients with the meager means to pay me for my services

Everything that you all thought you knew about me is now completely the other way around...

7/21/2016