Lukewarm

Do you seek me Efficienctly?
Do you love me, truely?
Am I your Identity?
Can you hear and feel me?
Am I your Pursuit?
Is it Evident in your Fruit?
Dont be a Lukewarm Christian
But have Tunnel Vision and Be on A misson.
Be A Testimony A living Witness.
Be about Your Father Businesses.
Dont Be A Lukewarm Christian.
However, I may Fall under that Divsion of a Lukewarm Christian letting Sin come in like friction and that Gave us division.

Although I pray Lord Crucify my flesh
Because I know Im a wretched mess
And You deserve praises of Gratitude nothing less than my very best.
Tired of being a damsel in distress. Feelings of being oppressed.
Sorrows and feelings of my unworthyness. Ive sinned father I must verbalize with my mouth and with my heart I  Confess
Father I am Down right guilty.
And now Feeling stupid, and filthy.
Ugly, replusive and Grotesque.
Ashamed that became such a wretched mess.
The Fire of Anger Is Raging.
Even though he promised his love is never failing or unchanging.
Im distorted.
Crying, drooling,  I think i even snorted. Thinking about all the visions you had for me aborted.
You gave me love Grace and mercy but I gave nothing in return, You felt shorted. Didn't even realized That our realtionship was being compromised.
I became unsightly hideous.
Furious, mad at the world because I let Lust come between us.
No peace no quite all I do is fuss and cuss.
I claimed to died to my self  so in you i have been reborn.
But apart of me still sinful angry beat down tied up broken and torn.
Heart is shatter and selfishly I mourn,
due to the fact that I have been brutally scorned.
Was I ever real or was It just an act on staged being Performed.
Cuz Im feel Conviction from the spirit Tell Me I was just A Christian being Lukewarm.
On a daily crying faithfully asked people just to pray for me.
Walking through life Shamefully
When I should be Praise The Most High Thankfully.
Talking And thinking Mentally
Ultimately will he always wait for me?
Consciously Rethinking will I ever make it to eternity?
I just cant see Myself being worthy.
Am I truely walking Accordingly?
Am I really seeking his word so it can transfrom me?
Is my life a Prouduct of me worshiping thee?
After all the pain and the suffering.
After All that you went thru just to Sacrifice your only son for our covering.
Just that thought alone left my mind blundering
Im in deep thought Wondering.
To myself am I causing myself spiritual harm.
Because I put on my fake smile and throw in my charm.
Am I Christian Thats Lukewarm.?
If you so Wake up. Stop hitting the Snooze button on the Alarm.