Crushing Borderline Personality.

Sorry if life is too intense for you.

I've come to know life. I love the smell of my skin, sweet and very neutral. I love the sensation of my heart beating, knowing and embodying every drop of blood coursing through my entirety. I love my connection with pain in all its beautiful forms. The rattling sting of a cut radiates pleasure, and leg thumping bubbling itch of a lighters aftermath. Slide out the knife of a uncomfortable thought Lacerating emotional skin to not suffocate your dark corner sobs that conjure the wake of your malicious pit that gouges your mind like a cannibal. Let me birth from my throat and tear myself and rip flesh like tissue paper and ill be free. A knife running across my arm, it hurts where its most sensitive, and dulls in between. Unprecedented feelings, unexplained and they don't go away bash your head to make the insufferable ring go way. Rushing Adrenaline, endless compassion, fearless envy! Empathy so hard I can feel your suffering, your pain, your desires, so I embody it and it corners me into a unfathomable lust. Your the centipede that infatuates my corpse crawling in my ear, nesting in my sanity, and I feel each push and nibble; binge eat my mind. I can shake and resist but I want you to crawl inside me, truly my entirety is for your pleasure, or how could it feels so good, you filling inside me, and the rushes of ecstasy at every corner you molest so to the deepest extents of my soul, crawl, expose me, I'm here naked in front you so just fucking rape me. Fucking rape me before I give in and I rape you. Tear at my eyes and unleash your scream of passion, like the weight of the ocean flood over me. Scrape your fingernails into my flesh, expose the infestation of conflict inside me. Press my lips against yours and throw your filth up, without resistance Ill let it fill inside me, to burn down my throat, and sit like lead in my stomach. Resist!? I wont resist but I want you to Resist me. I won't resist you. Let all your negativity, hate, and resentment devour me, envelope my very soul and destroy me. Ill take your hands and place them around my neck, stare into my eyes and well in its beauty. Squeeze, squeeze, push your thumbs into my throat until I can't see the sun no more. Till I can't move my arms no more, and my legs, my heart, shake and tingle until I'm completely numb, ill stop all resistance then finally I'm not there no more. Ill fall back, like floating in depth of the ocean, and fall slowly from the horizon of warped senses. Unable to breath, thick darkness replaces brilliant light in a final moment of a screaming unadulterated bliss. I've come to know life.