Pray

I swear getting out of bed everyday is a fight, looking out the window wondering why the sun doesn't shine bright, realizing today is just another hard day, I just need to fall to my knees and learn how to pray, no food in the refrigerator, bank account on zero, can't show any sign of weakness cause my child looks to me as a hero, but what do you do when reality gets built up inside, do I just walk outside get in the car and cry, do I tell people today's gonna be different even tho I know it's a lie or do I simply load a gun and hold it to my head because I want die, like I know if I pull the trigger it would put me at ease, waiting for your phone to ring like someone help me please, I've reached my breaking point, I don't want see another day, but I remember in times like this, grandma would tell us all we have to do is pray, the Lord doesn't put more on us than we can bare, it may not seem like it now but God really does care, He's just giving you hard times now because it's only a test, but in the end it pays off and then you can finally rest, Lord I finally realize I need to turn to you, your grace and mercy is everlasting and true, show me the kind of life you would want me to have, I'm putting my trust in you to direct my path, and when opened my eyes what did I finally see, the sun started shining and I just couldn't believe, that all it takes to have a beautiful day is to just fall on your knees, look to the Lord and pray