Before I Go To Sleep

I checked again to see if you had thought of me.
My phone now in the other room, banished for it's lack of you.
I told you I was out tonight to implant myself in your brain.
Sitting here alone and anxious is driving me insane.
Why aren't you calling, texting, checking where I am?
I could be doing anything with anyone and you would never know.
Instead I pace this empty house, your smell lingers here still.
This silent waiting is slowly killing me.
This empty void that only you could ever fill.
I'm losing it, I'm losing you, I thought I had control.
I'm stumbling, I've slipped, I'm falling down this hole.
For fucks sake where are you, why aren't I on your mind.
I think I'll just go check again, I thought I heard a beep.
I just need to know you've thought of me before I go to sleep.