Appreciate Me

I look so happy all the time in any place
But when I’m sad you cannot see
I hide behind a happy face
I just can’t see why they don’t want me

When I come home every day
I see my cousin hug her dad
That makes me want to run away
It makes me wish I could show them I’m sad

When I get the courage to try and speak up
I get dizzy and out of breath
My anxiety makes me feel like a lost little pup
It sometimes makes me want to encounter death

Crying is a thing I do on the daily
I’ve been hurt a lot in my life
I am much more sensitive lately
I just can’t see why he still stays with his nasty bitch wife

They don’t talk to me anymore
But I still try to make things work out
How can he not see she is bad for him? She needs to go find the front door
She just uses him for things, and when she can’t get anything out of him, she will sit and pout

She doesn’t really love him, not like I do. I love him so.
She couldn’t take care of her children, how can she take care of a man?
If I don’t speak up, that cow will demolish the last bit of him I still know
She is harmful to people, her words will cut and infect, she is like rust on a can

Why can’t anybody hear me! I hate his wife!
I’m trying my best
I can’t get the words out for my life
Because of this stress, I failed a few too many tests

When will he see? His daughter is all he really needs
That’s the reason for writing this, so maybe someone will accidentally see?
He is my Dad, he is supposed to be the one who leads
I just can’t wait till she’s gone, so he can finally begin to appreciate me.