not over

I didn't think it would happen again
I didn't think I could reach this point again
I thought I had finally made it out of the valley
Or maybe that's the illusion I gave myself
So that it'd all be "okay"
But it's clear now
I have ventured farther into the depths of the valley
I can no longer see the light through the trees
There's only darkness
It's cold and frightens me but it's also comforting and familiar
It's the only thing I've known for years
I welcome it but also flinch when it draws near
The fight is not over, not even close