I lay at night; and the nights I cant sleep I sit in agony trying to put the pieces together as to why you would do me wrong
What happened to the way you said my name and how I didn't even have to question your love
Was I not enough? Is that why you had her on the side?
Was the way I made you laugh till you couldn't breathe and smile when all you wanted to do was scream not enough?
I don't get what changed your mind about me.
I swear one day I saw hate in your eyes, What did I do, dammit?
How could you just abandon me the way you did?
Do you remember how much I meant to you?
When I was sad I can see in your eyes it hurt you to see me like this, and overtime it didn't effect you one bit, you didn't even bother to try and make me smile.
Like seeing me sad made me ugly and not worth the effort.
You knew my past and so
You made what lies ahead worse than what was left behind
You have the audacity to tell me you love and how you always will, and how you regret everything you did
like because i love you ill forgive you??
I want you to know the day you decided to kill me inside is when my love began to turn to hate.
Little by little i learned to replace my love towards you with hate
For you don't even deserve a fragment of my love nor hate
but because you actually meant the world to me i give you a piece of me that doesn't completely destroy me but makes me stronger
Although it doesn't show love it shows that you left a mark on me and that it'll always be there.
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Author:
Maya Strinz (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: November 9th, 2016 15:22
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very sad...Ive been right where you are here many times before and It SUX
It truly does I'm sorry to hear you've had to be put through this many times. I wish you the best. I hope writing helps you like it does for me. It really helps me to express my feelings without actually having to say them and it helps to know people have felt the same. Theres always someone out there who can relate, they will never feel the pain the way you did as you will never for them, but at least you can have someone to understand you even if its only a fragment of understandment, its something.
Been there myself, Great write
thank you. Writing is one of the things i love most. Im sorry you've experienced this, but i hope its only made you stronger and i hope its helped you inline, so it didn't just feel like it was there for only on purpose; pain. I hope you were able to overcome it all. I wish you the best.
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