myself

   I live in myself
Keep my real self hidden like a book on the back shelf.
If overthinking was worth I would have all the wealth
The way I handle problems aren’t the best for my health.
I get so exhausted my brain needs to rest.
I get knocked back down every time I hit my crest.
I run for hours but only move a little bit
It seems like Im stuck in a rut
Like someone has me tied up its time to cut.
If my lifes a gamble Im willing to bet my last dime
Poring myself out in my rhymes.
I don’t know how to talk I just need to be alone sometimes.
I used to hide the pain by doing crimes
I never have been the one to cry
Sometimes I just wanna let go and die
But something keeps me from it though
Why do I get treated this way that’s all I wanna know
Everyday is like a never ending brawl
Sometimes I have to kneel down and crawl.
I need a break take time to heal.
Just to have help Im willing to make a deal