I'm Sorry

My demons have arrived

They are beating down my door

You told me our demons could play

And like a fool

I believed you

I should have known what would happen

I should have known all my demons would do

Is bring yours down to my level.

I see you crumbling in front of me

I hear the words coming out of your mouth

That match the words in my mind

The ones I'm too afraid to speak.

And I understand

Implicitly

That this is

On some level

My fault.

I knew you were hurting

And I tried to be here for you.

But you tried to do the same for me

And it's too late

To save me.

All I've done is brought you down.

Every day

I'll have to live with

What I've done to you.

All I've ever wanted to do

Is help.

But all I do is hurt.

I can't keep going this way.

I don't deserve to be here.

You deserve the world;

You deserve so much.

I'm so sorry.

For everything.

Because my demons have arrived.

They're beating down my door.

And I'm going with them.