Headaches

Headaches

The lights are too bright
And the sounds too loud

My head feels like a million knifes stabbing
Shrieking louder than sirens
My body's to heavy
Like lead in my soul

The world is fuzzy and dizzy
I try to shut myself out
In the silence with the lights out
And try to calm it down

But my head won't stop spinning
And screaming to many thoughts to think clearly

I whisper
And try to think of a time the pain wasn't here
And I can't
I try to stay calm
Try to make out clear thoughts
And keep the dizziness at bay

Nothing helps
No matter how hard we try
So just stop
And leave me alone
Because nothing with ever make it better

You think it's not that bad
Say it will go away soon
Sleep it off

But no
They never go away
I can't just sleep them off
It's a constant pain
Numb and sharp

There is no way to end it
Not even if I die
Because then you will have them
And I would never put that on anyone

So as I let the darkness swallow me whole
I shrink into myself
And whisper my thoughts
Because the headaches will never stop