Self Destruction

Caught in this self destructive spiral

I know the decisions I'm making

Are the wrong ones

But that doesn't change them…

Hell,

Maybe that's why I made them.

My life is just one big fuck up

I might as well

Follow the theme.

Or maybe it's some perverse

Desire

To unravel my life

To give myself a reason

To feel the way I do

I drink until I don't remember myself

I smoke until all the pain

Goes up in smoke

I slice open my skin

Open up my soul

And slip out

And while I've slipped out

Of this prison of flesh

Might as well let someone else slip in

Worry about the consequences later

Right now I just don't want to feel

So fuck me

Get me drunk

Get me high

Pretend you don't see

Blood dripping

I'll pretend with you

One day

Maybe we can pretend me

Out of existence…

Until then

I'll stay

Caught in this self destructive spiral…