"I'm here alone, suffering"
"I'm here alone, suffering"
"I'm here alone, suffering"
"I'm here alone, suffering"
I'm the worst person you'll meet;
My sins are many and multiplying
The only thoughts that make me feel something
Are those of myself dying
I drown in endless agony
Anxiety is killing me
Until I reach epiphany
That death will be my sweet release
I make the same mistakes everyday
And I ain't getting better
Rather put the gun to my skull
And make the walls a little wetter
Paint with my brains an image of a perfect past
The brush will be my broken hand
Let loved ones be taken aback
Suicide will be the closing act
"I'm here alone, suffering"
"I'm here alone, suffering"
"I'm here alone, suffering"
"I'm here alone, suffering"
Someone tell me what I'm doing
Someone hold me for a second
"You're an infantile man-child
Who can't get any women"
Well, it ain't about the "gettin'"
I just want someone to touch me
Feel another human being
Then I wouldn't be so lonely
"That's why you paid for the sex, right?
Obeyed your silly sex drive
And now you're wallow in your pain
Until you fuck the next, right?"
It wasn't all that simple
Life's real messy right now
"You're not doing what you should be
Then you're saying that you 'drown?'
You're a narcissistic hypocrite
A scumbag, weakling piece of shit
A little thing falls out of place
and all you are is panicking"
I know you're right, but something's wrong with it
You're points, they don't make perfect sense
I'm doing all I can right now
Would you rather that I ended it?
"I'm here alone, suffering"
"I'm here alone, suffering"
"I'm here alone, suffering"
"I'm here alone, suffering"
Hey, man, fuck what you're saying, you don't know the whole truth
"Like 'you're scared to talk to people' or 'you tried the fucking noose?'"
I'm just saying that you're looking at this stuff all wrong
I try to do good, I slip up, but I gotta move along
Shit is fucked, and I know it; I ain't gotta sing the song
I did a lot of bad things and my laundry list is long
But I'll make the changes I need to and it's all in due time
I'm a real man, whether or not I panic or I cry
You're the hatred that's been bugging me since I was fucking nine
You're the reason why I panic, now prepare for a surprise:
We ain't talkin'; I ain't hearing you for all my fucking life
'Cause I know that If I stick with you, then I will fucking die
"I'm here alone, suffering"
"I'm here alone, suffering"
"I'm here alone, suffering"
"I'm here alone, suffering"
- Author: AnxiousMane ( Offline)
- Published: December 2nd, 2016 04:49
- Comment from author about the poem: Came up with this as I listened to Lil Ugly Mane's "Alone and Suffering" from his album Mista Thug Isolation. Also, first poem with "colourful" language.
- Category: Sad
- Views: 43
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Great write
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