He said, She Said

A million things running through my mind,

Like why a man would just assume,

Assume that his touch was wanted,

Or why a married man would try to take advantage of a tipsy young girl.

We grow up in a world,

That we believe is made of sunshine and rainbows,

But when you look through the magnifying glass, 

It's much more than what meets the eye.

Why didn't I stand up for myself?

Afraid of what he would say or what she would think,

Was I asking for it?

Trying to signal the girl across the room,

With a shifty gaze and a plea for help,

His touch wasn't wanted I swear,

But that's not what he said.

In this world it's a she said he said,

Who do you believe?

He made me feel like a shameful liar,

When in reality he should be feeling dirty,

I couldn't even speak out, like the words were trapped inside my head.

I felt helpless and filthy.

But I escaped and nothing happened, I should be happy right?

Happy that it didn't go that far.

But for some reason I still feel nervous and uneasy.

My heart races and my eyes bounce from place to place,

Even though I remind myself that it's over,

And that It will never happen again,

Because this time I have control and I won't let it go.