Be Silent

I can't stop over thinking.
Each night I lie awake never sleeping.
You're always on my mind,
And I don't understand why,
There's been so much time.
I've gotten over the fact
That you were never mine.
Yet still,
I lie awake,
Thinking about your face.
Don't ask me why,
Because I don't know.
I can't seem to let go of the way my heart raced.
Each night,
When all is quiet,
My mind is never silent.
I try my best to shut my eyes,
To let the dreams take me,
But my thoughts continue to violently vent.
Why?
Why does my mind torture me?
What does it want me to see?
Yes, I will never forget him,
But that doesn't mean my brain can't let me up for air.
Let me get away from him!
I lie awake with no break,
It's killing me inside,
There's only so much I can take.
I feel broken and abandoned.
So please,
Let me out of this hole.
I am finished letting thoughts of him,
Rip apart my soul.
It's time for my brain and I to let go.
And at last there is something I now know.
I'm done being the victim
To this cruel system,
I need to learn to love myself,
Before I can love anyone else.
So brain please let me rest,
Because letting him go is for the best.