Truth of Heart

Can I Trust you?

Can I believe that these words will not go pass the pages of your mind?
Can I trust that my thoughts will not exit your lips and bring me to my demise?

Then I cant speak freely...

I cant give life to matters of heart

But the truth remains......Why do you haunt me in my sleep.

Why is it that all these years...you have silently plagued me?

I am disappointed, angry and ashamed
But mainly sad

The idea will always be a mystery

Why does that bother me? How do I close the corridors of my mind?

Sometimes I feel you in waves,
that flow as if you were breathing my name into the air and your breathe traveled to me from wherever you are

And I inhale you for days

You show up in my dreams, in my thoughts and I can feel you pulling the strings of my
heart into a tug of war
A fierce battle of the mind
A clash of the unknown vs. my reality

Impending on my very idea of happiness

How do I close this door?

At times I cannot find the space in my mind to rent to other things.

Call me corny
I don't care, I never did.

I have no desire of possessions or material
things, I never have.

But rather seek to be pure of heart, which requires me to be honest with myself and let you know

I still carry you in my heart