Rain

I got a lot of shit on my mind, the pressure's getting heavy,
Life is driving me crazy, I'm very far from steady
Behind this fake smile are these hidden thoughts that scare me,
I keep them to myself because I'm not used to sharing

At this point, the happiness I had is now gone,
I put up a front so my friends don't ask me "what's wrong?"
This is a side of me that many have never seen,
People look at my lawn, but the grass ain't always green

I look at myself, and I know that I'm blessed,
But at the same time, I get so strung out and stressed
School is the focal point, no ifs, ands or maybes,
These situations got me feeling like I'm pushing up daisies

For starters I got into an issue with some girls,
The unnecessary drama had my mind doing swirls
Emotions got ran through and rumors got passed,
Some laughed, some forgiven, and some just got trashed

Another issue that I came across is friendship and trust,
The ones you call your bros can kick you right in the dust
Me and my closest homie been lowkey beefing for weeks,
Went from chilling all the time to now we don't even speak

These classes are a pain, they really ripped me a new one,
There's four more papers due right after I get 2 done
It's a struggle by itself just to get a good grade,
Been off my A game, assignments end up being missing or late

They say that money is the root of all evil, it's true,
Because it's all good and well until the target is you
Me and momma freakin’ out cuz we owe the school stacks,
Got another year left, but fear that I won't come back

I'm almost at the point where I wanna cry or just shout,
Or maybe just crawl under a rock and never come out
Stress is pulling me apart in all different directions,
Pressure's building up, now I'm losing all perceptions

I wish I could lay all these problems down and put them to rest,
I feel like God is the teacher and I'm failing His test
Honestly, I don't know what lies in store for me next,
But for now, I can only hope and pray for the best