I knew a Pastor

I know a Pastor who has stripped my pride and my  childhood life I know a Pastor who threatened my mother with a knife I knew one who was so full of greed he tried to convince himself money is what he needs I know one who let the family go just so the church could grow yet just like the family the church always fell apart I know one who invited Jesus into other's hearts yet failed to invite Jesus into his he's so manipulative gosh I hear his screaming still like a horrible nightmare that just won't go away and even if someone tells you it's okay you don't believe it   he's there even when he isn't you start to see his face shape on other people especially when they scream makes you feel as if life is nothing but a dream you just want to wake up and start over but you can't you have to carry the burden the scars the blood the fear all upon your hands you can try to wash the blood stains and the bruise's but they don't seem to go away yet you're on your knees praying for a better day you no longer have a voice because you have his inside of yours ha! If I wanted to sing I can't even use my own vocal cords

This pastor was my father I mean let's be honest who beats their daughter or their wife and kids ? Who forces a woman to have sexual intercourse with you and who takes her at 13 years old! To make her a guinea pig for you this is a full list of what fake so called pastors do the devil is disguised in many different forms but Jesus always prevailed and made me feel at home even when life got to hard I'd cry in my room and thank God yes I knew a Pastor but I don't know one anymore I will never be called a whore or made to feel like I'm poor or stupid even insecure because everything I had to deal with at ten years old and older are nomore all because I don't know you anymore  God stepped in and became the best father a girl could wish for your form of slavery to this once broken family is over the chains are broken and you have no power over us. I knew a Pastor but I don't nomore.

-Rebekah Jessica masse