the demons

do you hear the pleads of the demons that want the blood spilled on the stone cold floor of earth?

do you hear the angels pleading for forgiveness to the lord as I am a selfish and sadistic soul. 

As their plead makes me want  to return to my faith, yet I refuse.  Scared I am, I have shattered the valuable thing the lord had given me.  am I worth the plead, or maybe should I follow the bleak thoughts of my mind.  would my prayers be heard after I have done an act which may never can be put to right. there I see my reflection and the demons appear behind me grinning. A tear i shed refusing to feel any remorse I slowly let the delicate sharp knife invade my stomach and killed it, the angel that was supposed to make a difference in this sad sad world . However, I left the world  live in vain. Also, knowing that I will never be redeemed of the sin, of killing an angel, not just an angel but my angel.