Tell me what your life is like because mine is real.
Everything signed and sealed, my mind on pills.
Co dependence instead interdependence signed the deal.
Some guilt some regret and that's how I feel.
I think it's time to let it go before I lose more time. I already lost my mind due to the lack of your love and all of your fine.
As I write these words I'm covered in silver moon light. Enjoying the breeze and hoping I can get this right.
Sorry for my flaws and you know it, or more for my mistakes I'm still growing. My success, the way I think it's clearly showing.
I hate life without you as I ponder my blessings. I hate I will be perfect for the next, living life's lessons.
Unable to love because of the hope that I have, the dreams and the visions of talking and holding your hand.
I know that I can't have you and I know that your gone. I know that I failed and I know I was wrong.
All this time to think and it came out like this.
Here's my moment of clarity, I had been misleading you all giving you half of me. I've been blazing a trail and leaving casualties, I'll diagnose myself and call it apathy.
You put all men in a box and I'm not one of em. Funny how you have all the answers and none of them. You only really dated 3 or 4 men, I should be scared of you, because with no point of reference what do you compare me to?
Your kids father that was was stuck on porn, or the 2nd husband that was looking for a mom, $200k is his account and had you working paying all the bills and raising the kids alone...please come on.
Or maybe your athlete that had no strings attached. No EQ just a common guy and a semi sexual match.
Oh well it's all over now and I miss you when the sky drops rain, handfuls of pills to endure this pain. Forever I'll be missing you wishing I was kissing you but those are wishful thoughts and I have to live in truth.
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Author:
Willy Beeman (
Offline) - Published: February 9th, 2017 12:33
- Category: Love
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Comments4
Hello Willy, Letting go when you are deeply in love, is hard! I've done it before and it was hell! Your words are moving and raw, but also beautifully written!
Thank you
A great poetic conversation Willy B.
Thank you, as always your words are appreciated...
Awesome write
I am so there with you. I miss him yet I know I am not the person he can love. He put me in a box and set out to prove he was right. Funny thing, when someone wants to prove even something wrong they can prove it right. In the box they live in always right....arrrrrrhhhhh
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