Pause

All of the crazy thoughts that I had spoken

turned the occasional toke into the spinning whirlwind that arrives just after the point ejects from the vein

The world around me started trying to talk me into believing that I had gone insane

To me, clearly, that was far from the case

When nothing else seems to do it for you anymore, well, then it is obviously time to find a way to pick up the pace

They all start trying to get up in my face, as if they could ever intervene

Everything spilled out upon the grounds on which I thrived

Then, suddenly, there was no other choice but to come clean

Sometimes I start to think that it all may hold some truth

The ugly things that my so-called friends say

It is definitely a vicious game that I definitely chose to play

The cover-up is uncovered some day, no matter how long the great ruse is believed

Then, everyone is all disappointed more in what I have kept hidden then proud of me for all that I have achieved

Our habits, the thieves that rest within the darkest catacombs of the mind

The chemicals that ease the misery by taking the truth into captivity while you become temporarily blinded

Sinister

Absent-minded

Bound

Nobody to be found who truly believes in what you have to say

Day in

Day out

They come and go without you ever finishing a single thing

You can already hear their nagging lecture before you pick up the telephone that is ringing off the hook

Something just took your will to explain

Standing still, naked

In the downpour of the rain

Cleansing the aura of the damages you have caused

A pause, dead-center in the midst of the addiction

An affliction put upon you by the hands of none other than the Good Lord above

Unconditional love, found at long last....

9/23/2011