Pretender

I look into the mirror
All these faces stare right back at me
The question isn't who am I
It's which face will I wear today

Pretending
To make sense
Of this fake reality
And all you want to say to me

Is are you struggling to sleep?

What do you think
Are tired eyes as red as they can be
Well bloodshot I'd say hopelessness
Is all that they can claim

I hate this
I'm not this
Man I woke up as
But I'm lost I think that yesterday's mask
Made a bit more sense

Or is it tomorrow
That I'll become who I truly am
The problem with pretending
Is that you forget your past

I'm twisted
Torn in two
My heart is cut to pieces
Only the rediscovery
Of my mind will unleash it

Have you ever stopped to think
To question if that smile is real
While your insides are on fire
So much so that you feel ill

Sick to the stomach
Put down and undone
Give me something I can use to take away the pain

My coping mechanisms are as useful as a flame
In water
It sparks into a nothingness
That fits
With how I'm truly feeling

How all I want to do is quit

Pretending

Being all the faces in my draw
If I can't keep this up
Then I fear this will end in blood