A NEW DAD TO MY DAUGHTER, she just turned 11

"PARANOID COPS"

I sit in a dark room
With a twin bed, tv, nightstand , small refidge and microwave
Blankets cover the curtains which hides the blinds that's over the window
Taped up the peep hole
As I Strike a dark green bic
Heat this glass
Gently melt the diamonds
Slowing roll it back and forth
Inhaling till my lungs are full

Exhale

Cool off to crystal up
For 1 more hit
Pissing in a bottle
Cause voices coming from the bathroom
And that sprinkler hides a mic
Footsteps on the roof tell me
The time may be tonight
Out to steal my freedom
3 months ago started following me
I'm saving for a car so in return I can stalk them
Strike some fear in them
But for now I'm going hit this again God damn
That last light was the final one
Sparkles flash with no flame

Panicking cause the store is 2 blocks away
And the footsteps has been replaced by a plane
Circling faster and faster
Trying to blow my door down
So I won't get my deposit back
Pinned against the back wall
When a window appears
God sent
I'm out it walking the back alley
With this black guy who seems to be right beside me
When these noises stop me
12 feet from the trash
Following the sound
Reach in through the needles and used condemns
Grab something pull it hard
Lands in my arms
Its crying
I'm crying
Amazed and confused
I Slowly start walking
Lost headed anywhere but nowhere .....

Conceived in room 22 at Magic inn
She gave birth Aprils fools in the bathroom of room 22 at the magic inn
Evicted after 15 mins
Left to die outback of the magic inn
Cause a baby crying seems to throw men off
Who have paid to get off
And to keep the room
Money has to be made
Rent needs to be paid
4 women rotate using 2 twin beds
Whorehouse downsized makes profits soar
Screams from the trash
Lucky for me
most can't ignore
Pulled from under needles and used condoms
A herion addict
Having withdraws before taking my first shit
When
Something grabs and pulls hard
Land in this strange man arms
I'm crying
He's crying
Then Starts walking with me
6 hours late but finally I been delivered to a doctor

I did 3 months in the hospital
Then a total of 10years in foster care
Funny how people act when money up for grabs
Fake love, false hope
Other kids made it clear
I wasn't wanted
Abused and shamed
Cursed and used
Asking God where are you
Often wondered what happen to that man
If he got clean like me
Ever thought about me
Luck turned as I turned 11
A professional couple with no kids wanted to meet
Six months later They say I'm getting a new last name and a permanent home
Pulling up seeing it is when I finally believed it
Standing out front reading welcome home
I cried
They cried
My new dad reached down picked me up
Whispering
It took 11 years
A lot of work , pain and heartache
But I promise you ill be there before you cry from now till the end