Pain

Pain? What is pain? Do I know how it feels? Not physical but emotionally... pain has come across so much in the pst 2' years ... what to do is the ? Me I cry to god a dnt pray the pain away but it always come back to hunt me...why? Is the ? Pain is killing me everyday but why? I cry and try to move on but that one painful thought keeps coming back in my mind now I'm suffering from all the pain u left me with....why is the ? What is keeping me in this pain? I can't get u out my head why do u have this much affect on me ? Pain is what I feel all and everyday but why? I use to smile all day and enjoy life but u took that away from me but why? Do u hate me? Am I that horrible that you put me through all this pain? Every time but why? I try and try to move on but I can't my heart is locked but why? Why won't I let anybody else in WHY? I deal with my mental illness and heartache the best way I can but why must I be in pain too? Why why oh why I hurt so bad? Why must tears keep falling for u....why can't I move on....why???pain is what I feel all the time but why? Do u fee the pain I feel if not why not???? I'm so confused....what is pain???