"You Still Love Him, Don't You?"

I never stopped. I’ve cried my last tears because of him. Sleepless nights have just become a routine. I do need to let go, but I just don’t know how. I know he’s no good for me. I know he loves her now, I guess I’m just jealous because she now has everything that I worked so hard to keep. I guess it just wasn’t enough. I’m jealous that she now has his attention and love. Every time I see them together, my whole body aches. Maybe I should have tried harder. Maybe I should have left the second I knew things weren’t right. I should have crushed you the way you did me. What did I even do wrong? All I wanted was your attention. The attention you now give her. I fought for your heart for so long… then you just left. Why does it hurt so much? I know you are no good. I helped you through your struggles, so why was I tossed away? You say I’m young and I just don’t understand. I understand perfectly. I was replaced. The boy that swore he loved me no longer does. He just woke up one day and realized I was no longer who he wanted. Then he apologized as if his “sorry” could fix my broken heart. His sorry only cleared his conscience, but not my pain.