Hearts

I hate this...Why me??
Why don't the world leave me be??
He's gone in June
That's so soon
They said they only give him to then
And then it's our end
His heart is shutting down his other functions
I don't want to go through this again
He's my everything...
I'll do anything...
I'll even let him have my heart so he can live his life
I'd rather him live then he die and I end up using a knife
He found a donor though but the chances of him dying...
I want him to do it and I'm not lying
I just can't do this...I'm only 14...Why me
He's only 15 so why does he have to leave...
Can someone help me? I need insight
Please will someone give me some light?