Final Bow

Sick and tired of trying.
Hold up appearences and lying.
Saying im alright but im crying.
Keep failing no matter how hard im trying.
Nobody is happy with me.
Nobody takes time to actually see. How hard it is to please.
To get down on broken knees.
And be treated like a disease.
After always wanting to be who everyone else wanted.
Be someone that they could have flaunted.
But to fail everytime forever haunted.
Forever feeling like ive lost it.
And taking the toll of watever it costed.
Now my spirits demollished.
My losing streak supremely polished.
As i look around and see the sad demeanor of it all.
See as everyone watches as i fall.
As everyone just ignores my call.
Story line like deja vue.
Saw it comin i always knew.
After all everyone put me thru.
After all the trouble ive went to.
I finally see wat i must do.
Since im such a problem for you.
Since im only a burden to your life.
Since i hold the truth to all your lies.
I know the secrets behind the disguise.
Ill finally do something truly wise.
As i shed these tears in my eyes.
Go to my room and lock the door.
Turn the music up i kant hear no more.
Reach between the matress find wat im lookin for.
Grip the cold steel til my hands are sore.
Til my heart beats too loud to ignore.
In my head i hear my blood roar.
I've lost control my will is tore.
As i place it to my head like a lure.
Cock back to all the pain ive bore.
Pull the trigger and find the cure.
As i fall to the hard floor.
Out leaks all the problems of before.
All pouring out amongst the gore.
As the life leaves my face.
As my breath leaves this place.
One last tear leave a trace.and so many things it says.
As my existance takes its last and final bow.
Curtains close, are you proud of me now?