you're the reason

you're the reason,
i feel so unworthy of love.
you're the reason my mirror,
reflects a black dove.
you're the reason i push away,
whenever push comes to shove.
you're the reason i don't believe in,
any idea of a god up above.

you're the reason
i'm always still low when i'm high.
you're the reason that i've never
dreamt i could fly.
you're the reason,
i had to re-learn how to lie.
you're the reason
i had to re-learn how to cry

you're the reason
i started drinking beer.
you're the reason
i can no longer see clear.
you're the reason my angels
love my demons
and i bear witness to this treason
with a warm, sadistic cheer.
you're the reason,
i no longer trust the sincere.
you're the reason
i've grown so distant from my peers.
you're the reason,
a day alone feels like a year.
you're the reason my drive inside
is hard to steer.
you're the reason i'm scared
i'll never get into sixth gear.
you're the reason my third eye
cannot see out the rear -
you're the reason why i'll never
peek at pioneer.
you're the reason i wish my emotions
would disappear
so there's no reason you're disapproval should be
my darkest fear.