No Position To Love

I know I'm thinking lately that I'm better of alone

When I'm with you I feel complete and without you I feel lost

I step back to asses the madness hoping I'll find peace
Tormented by my mindset
Broken bones begin to split

It's only through perception that I see where I went wrong
I tried to be what I was not
Now that's not what you asked

You say you love me wholly
That I'll never truly doubt
Just wait until I've grasped this
I'll come back grabbing your hand

I know we're meant to be because this hurts more than I thought
And I know if you walked to me I'd open wide my door

My heart is aching lonely
Waiting for my head to stop
While it spins I'll remain distant
All I want is to stay close

I make no promises
As my stance is head over heart
I just hope the stars will realign
Before I fall apart