Hopeless speculations

Standing on the edge of my insanity, the margins of my mind, everything was falling down, my soul, my thoughts and myself. Everything was diminished within me, I had lost all my hopes to survive and even the faith that used to empower me to endure is gone, the shadow I used to love had betrayed my soul, he was my only and last hope to bear this miserable life and now I watched him walking away, with my soul in his hands, leaving a small yet painful hole in me and a crying, almost beatless heart. The screaming silence within me shredded me apart, but he didn’t hear, he wouldn’t anyway, he just gave me his warm smile before taking my soul away with him. My shadow escaped and embraced his shadow and united together, leaving me alone with my screaming thoughts, all the strings of my thoughts were pulled and burned, the candles were flamed, but the vile shaded my eye, I couldn’t feel the warmth, neither my weak heart or my sore soul, I disheartened everything and wiped out the light from within, I’m no longer willing to survive. The vile gave his last smirk before staring at my heavy, dismayed self, but I still hear the treads of my beloved traitor inside my mind, I knew it was a delusional hallucination, but with it I felt warmth from inside, believing those lies to survive and watched the memories of us burn and shatter before me. However, I collected the remaining of them and kept on watching and drew an imaginary life within my broke mind just to endure this horrified reality, I folded the remains and covered them with the painting I did inside myself to create a broken, screaming fantasy inside, with me and my betrayal devil holding hands.